Susan Castillo Kusmin is the founder of And Yet She Flourished (AYSF). She has been on staff with Redeemer Counseling Services (RCS), The Salvation Army’s Adult Rehabilitation Center, Redeemer Presbyterian Church, and Young Life, all in her native New York City.  Susan began her studies in counseling and theology at Christian Counseling and Education Foundation (CCEF), went on to attend Westminster Seminary in P.A., and earned her master’s degree from Redeemer Seminary in Dallas. She is also certified as a Life Coach through CLCI. Susan is currently equipping herself to provide even more holistic guidance for her many clients who struggle with body care by pursuing certification as a nutrition coach through the National Academy of Sports Medicine.

Susan and her husband Sean have had the privilege of being foster parents to 32 children. These days, their home is kept lively by their “fur babies”: three dogs and two kitties. When not working, Susan may often be found engaging in “embodied spiritual warfare” (i.e. strength training, boxing, or Barre), hunting for antique & vintage treasures, or tending to her indoor garden. Susan also serves as a teaching elder at Mosaic Covenant Church in New Jersey.

Susan is passionate about equipping God’s people to prevail over whatever is keeping them from operating at their full potential. Her relentless study of the Word of God, and her ability to communicate its treasures in clear and compelling ways, have helped many sisters and brothers in Christ walk in freedom they never imagined possible.

This world is a story, an epic story that God is unfolding. The fancy theological term for this is “The Meta-Narrative.” Within that complex, beautiful story, your life is a story, a sub-plot, that relates to the whole. And your story is precious to God. Not only the delightful parts of your story, but the whole thing. Even the “pages” you most wish you could forget, or tear out, have purpose and the potential for a redemptive ending.

Our name, And Yet She Flourished (AYSF), conveys our conviction that no matter how any part of your story started, or what turns it has taken, no matter how many mistakes you have made or hardships you have faced or fear facing, it IS possible to flourish. How can we be so sure? Because God loves nothing better than a redemptive ending. In fact, the story of the world has been moving towards its redemptive ending since before it began! Consider the following: 

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him… In him we have redemption through his blood… according to his purpose, which he set forth in Christ as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth. 

(Ephesians 1:3-10)

Once Christ returns and destroys the enemy once and for all and renews the heavens and the Earth: that will be the fullness of the redemptive ending to the story of this world: an ending that ushers in the beginning of eternal peace and joy for the children of God. And yet… God invites us to collaborate with him in how we live our story so that we may experience redemptive endings to many of our personal plot lines here and now, even in the context of this fallen world.  And not only that: we are commissioned and empowered to be agents of reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5:18-120), which means we get to show others how to flourish as they follow Jesus.  So…

The sword in the AYSF logo represents the Word of God. This is the weapon God provides for us to defeat our true enemy, who’s deception is involved in everything that causes distress.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm…. In all circumstances take up… the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Ephesians 6:12-17

The sword is the center of the AYSF logo to convey that the Word of God is at the center of all we do. Here are some interesting facts about sword-making that further illuminate why the sword is an apt metaphor for God’s word that we cherish at AYSF:

It is no wonder that the development of the sword took centuries… A sword needed to be solid enough to penetrate armor, to be flexible and durable at the same time… Proper balance and sharpness were essential… Because the production process was complex and [thus] the purchase price pretty high, swords were considered elite weapons. Sword makers tried to tailor the weapon to fit the individual needs of its owner; swords served as extended hands of warriors.

The word of God took centuries to “develop” or unfold. It is the most solid and durable weapon there is. Its wisdom is timeless and will stand forever. (Isaiah 40:8) Yet it is flexible in that it has so many and varied implications and applications. It is incredibly balanced in the scope of matters it addresses and it is sharp in that it penetrates the surface of things to reveal the truth beneath. It is meant to be applied in a tailored way that meets the needs of its users.

The Word of God is not a showpiece; it’s the ultimate, elite weapon. “Bible study” is not meant to be a time where we simply converse about the sword, only to store it in a display case where it collects dust until the next study. Our sword should be “muddy and bloody” from regular use. So at AYSF, we don’t just teach about the Word of God; we prepare you to activate it wherever the rubber meets the road in your daily life. Our goal is to help you get so skillful as God’s warriors that you are able to use the sword as if it were an extension of your own hands. 

It was often the case that swords had a jewel and/or some other markings for the purpose of indicating what country or group a warrior represented. In the AYSF logo, the red stone (garnet) represents the blood of Christ, shed on behalf of his beloved. It is a declaration that the warrior who wields this sword belongs to Christ.  Also…

Jewels on swords were a way for nobility and wealthy individuals to display their power and influence… they conveyed the status of their owners.

Within the AYSF logo, the jewel serves as a reminder to a child of God that she is “nobility,” an heir of the King who ever assures her “you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours.” (Luke 5:31)

Flowers and plants are traditionally symbols of flourishing. The flowers flanking the sword in the AYSF logo convey that flourishing is possible even in the context of the battles of life. Also, the flowers are the same red as the sword, symbolizing that it is because of the shed blood of Christ that it is possible for us to flourish no matter what we face. These red flowers are growing in a subtly heart-shaped way to signify that love is to be our motivation as we “fight the good fight.”

IV. The Story Behind Our Website Imagery

At AYSF, we are committed to raising up Christians, and women, in particular, to be the skillful, courageous, wise, resilient, faithful warriors for the Kingdom we were always intended to be. At AYSF, we train you in battle strategy: how to really listen to the stories you are hearing everyday, from within and without, about who you are, who God really is, and how to live this life. You will learn to identify the source and determine the validity of these claims.

Instead of falling prey to the narrative that you are stuck or trapped, instead of accepting:

  • “Anxiety is something I just feel and I can’t help spiraling.”
  • “Anger comes on so fast I can’t control it.”
  • “I just AM a perfectionist or a ‘people-pleaser’: It’s my personality.”
  • “The only way I can be well in this relationship is if the other person changes…and they never will”

…you will learn how to truly operate in your identity in Christ so you can make new choices that result in victories in areas of your life you had believed were hopeless. 

We do not wage war as the world does… We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God,  and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 

2 Corinthians 10:3,5 [NIV]

The warrior’s heart in the image conveys that in spite of all she has faced, she is flourishing, (as represented by the flowers and leaves springing forth from it.) Though she journeys through a darkened world, her heart has the luminous colors and quality found in the Kingdom imagery, because the Kingdom is her home and her passion.

This warrior is committed to keeping her heart healthy and vibrant. She has heeded her King’s admonition to not harden her heart (Hebrews 3:14). She refuses to let it go numb, cynical, or passion-less. The fact that her heart is visible through the armor indicates that she is bravely transparent in how she relates: she is not hiding whatever is in her heart from herself, God, or others. When her heart hurts, she runs to God for healing, confident he is eager to provide the balm she needs.

She also cares well for her physical heart, savvy that the enemy is coming after it, too. She knows preventable heart disease is the number one cause of death for women, and she is fighting back. She is committed not only to the health of her heart, but to strengthening and nourishing her whole body to the glory of God (1 Corinthians 6:20).  

The dark stone wall in the image is a reference to the cold, hard realities of sin and suffering in the fallen world. Though we are in the world, the Christian warrior is “not of the world.” (John 17:14-18)  for Christ has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son (Colossians 1:13). Our mission, as we sojourn through this dark domain is to proclaim the excellencies of him who called [us] out of darkness into his marvelous light (1 Peter 2:9) and as ambassadors of our King, to appeal to those still in rebellion to be reconciled to him. (2 Corinthians 5:20)

Flowers and vines are emerging from within the Kingdom and spreading along the wall. This imagery alludes to the following passage:

Thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession,
and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere

2 Corinthians 2:14-15

The Kingdom in the image represents the Kingdom of God, of which a disciple of Jesus is a citizen (Ephesians 2:19; Philippians 3:20). This domain of righteousness and peace and joy (Romans 14:17) is the kingdom we represent as warriors. Though we are besieged by temptation to conform to the world, our allegiance is to our King and his kingdom. Part of how we “fight the good fight” now is by maintaining our perspective that

this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.            

2 Corinthians 4:17-18 

No matter how bloody the battles of this life, the faithful warrior is both comforted and emboldened by the knowledge that her destiny is to dwell forever with our triumphant King where:

He will wipe away every tear from [our] eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

Revelation 21:4  

The gold arch that gives us access to the Kingdom is a reference to Jesus, as it is only through him that we become citizens of the Kingdom

  • Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
    John 14:6
  • We have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us. Hebrews 10:19-120
  • I am the door. If anyone enters by me, s/he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture.
    John 10:9

Butterflies and birds are universal symbols of freedom. In this image, they are symbols of how God has always been about setting his people free from whatever ensnares us: from within and without.

  • Out of my distress I called on the Lord; the Lord answered me and set me free. The Lord is on my side; I will not fear. What can man do to me? Psalm 118:5-6
  • Therefore thus says the Lord God… I will let the souls whom you hunt go free, the souls like birds. Ezekiel 13:20
  • For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. Romans 8:2

Butterflies, though not referenced in Scripture, are a universal symbol of transformation. The miraculous way in which a caterpillar emerges as a radically new creature is an apt illustration of the Christian life. When we receive Christ as our Lord and Savior, we are indwelt by the Holy Spirit and are spiritually born again as a new creation, like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, s/he is a new creation.
The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 

2 Corinthians 5:17

Jesus has done all that is necessary for us to be free. He has ransomed us from an enemy who had owned us, by rights, because of our rebellion against the King. But like a bird that remains in a cage that has been opened, we have to learn to actually live free.

For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore,
and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. 

Galatians 5:1

At AYSF, we help you learn how to “stand firm” and overcome whatever is keeping you from operating in the freedom Christ has won for you.

If you are ready to learn to flourish no matter what you face and to help others do the same, then it’s time to take the next step. Select the AYSF service that is right for you:

 Blessed be the Lord, my rock,
    who trains my hands for war,
    and my fingers for battle;
He is my steadfast love and my fortress,
    my stronghold and my deliverer 

Psalm 144:1-2